i was spending time with my family, extended included. my children, brothers + their families, my husband, my mom, they were all there. something happened and i turned around expecting to see my mom behind me, but when the 180 was made, it was my dad. i was so surprised and exclaimed, "dad! what are you doing here? i miss you so much!!" he smiled a great big smile, one that almost has a chuckle within it and said, "i knew you wouldn't be expecting to see me" and grabbed me up into his arms, held me and hugged me so tight, receiving the same in return.
he was wearing his solid green flannel and jeans,
i could see the gap between his two front teeth
and i could smell the hint of carmex from his dry nose.
that's all i remember, it was so real.
it's been 6.5 years since he died
and i miss him deeply everyday.
i am so thankful for my dreams, the travels i take
and encounters i experience during my sleep.
bootie, you just made my mascara run.
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wow. your dad is still very much alive inside of you. what a wonderful treat dreams can be. like an unexpected gift we give to ourselves.
ReplyDeleteMaybe this dream was a little gift from the Lord. He knows you miss your dad and probably doesn't want to hog him. :)
ReplyDeleteLove you. Love your dad.
I miss him every single day too. of course not the same as for you. but I so so so wish that our kids still had their amazing grandpa John and that Joe could call him to talk, to listen, to be understood. He brought such a steadiness and a joy to all of us. I still ask why.
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