well, first post...a day that sort of had me crippled with sadness. learned of two old friends who's oldest son (6 years old) passed away a few weeks ago. death causes that feeling of deep sadness and gratitude. the gratitude should be there daily. i am afraid it will take something tragic for me to feel that on a daily basis....that's scary. i hope tomorrow i can live with the perspective that our days our numbered...our children's days are numbered and we don't know what the future holds. i do believe there is eternal life, and that is something *i* can hold onto...it gives me hope and makes it so i do not live each day crippled with fear.

on a lighter note...our day was filled with the girls dancing, laughing, joking, playing, singing, jumping, skipping, creating, relaxing, and just being....healthy....without a care....loved!